A Christmas Confession

Dear God,

I confess now that you have always been there
I was not able to see you even though you kept knocking my door
So busy with earthly nonsens and no eye for transcendence
All this time you kept knocking more and more

Now I feel that I can open up the door for You
Please come into my life now and knock on more
I know you are here and I only have to accept
That I am and You are and connectedness is the core

I was out there all the time while you were always there
So many faces, so many places, but only one Source
I do not know anything now that the door is open
No more understanding is possible now of this mysterious force

10.000 Miles I walked in darkness towards a dim future light
So many shivers and twists and all this misunderstanding
No more labels now and just an open flow of unknown beauty
With no ground under my feet now it is safe to be landing

Now I no longer know who or where You are
But peacefulness and transparency fill the spaces in between
My only longing now is to share and live this sacred Light
I confess now that I was blind but through a miracle have seen

Marijn